Romans Sounds Like Romance...

Weekend oh how you sneak up on us and leave just as fast!

Friday I went to a Sheraton to sit on babies for about three point five hours... and oddly enough to memory lane, I had been here once or twice before... when I played soccer (pretty much my whole life) for a traveling team we would play many tournaments in VA, little did I know I would eventually live here in the state I would play soccer so many weekends... just a tangent last year we went to VA for like 5 weekends in a row to play against colleges here (when I played for Meredith College)... back to babysitting time...

little ones make me nervous b/c they are so delicate, I mean their tiny fingernails are too precious but I can't even begin to describe their beautiful faces and innocence... gah I LOVE THEM... but don't worry mom, I'm not planning on having my own just yet... Amelie is the little girl I ended up spending about two hours with... just telling her how beautiful she is and how God made her and just loving on her... it takes a lot to pour into a child, but it's so worth it, it's beautiful. Amelie didn't cry the WHOLE time I was with her and I thank God for this b/c I don't know what to do when they cry... the Lord really helped me through this babysitting time... He gave me Jessica to help with the babes... then we went to RIHOP and I was so tired, and then hit up some spending the night with mel and chelle.

reverse to the beginning of this weekend... plans were changed and buildups of the little things lead to a small breakdown on the phone with my mom... it felt good to cry, there were no particular reasons for crying... that I know of... I mean I at least know one thing, I am slightly homesick... but then on the other end of things...when I go home I get homesick for RVA... the best part of it all though is that my Lord, my God is EVERPRESENT! So this helps with the homesick times, and God, I appologize for the times I think more about my "homes" and get "homesick" when I don't turn to You, You are my home YOU ARE MY HOME! And You give me family! oh how you do. gah, man wow. love.

saturday consisted of me basically sleep-getting a lift from mel to hannah's house. I got there and became surprisingly awake for a bit of time. I cherish the times I get to spend with my sisters. Hannah and I don't really get to hang out much but when we do we get a chance to talk about good life things. We had a chance to talk about things I needed to ask and talk about as well as just giggle at how we are... we made a butt-load of pancakes, some with an occaisional chocolate chip but we had to be sparing b/c we were almost out of them... as well as a yummers egg. No butter needed! haha. We headed to Joni's house to cheer her up from being sick, what a cute kid. Reverse to Hannah's house... I actually fell asleep on the couch downstairs but thankfully Hannah forgot to take a picture of me! Haha. Got home and showered and cut some of my hair, kind of went at it... and then played a little bit, and then headed to short pump to get some jeans because all of my current ones were holy haha ;) no pun intended...

so I headed out there in a somewhat dreamlike time of driving, victoria guided me (gps)... one of my favorite things about shopping is talking to strangers and especially talking to the people that work at the stores... not where they ask how they can help us but just talking to them about anything other than work haha... so I went to urban outfitters where I had a card and just kind of looked around for a bit... there were so many kids around. I was in a sea of people and it felt kind of weird to be there alone, but I was looking at these kids and just wanting to pour out to them, which as I type now makes me want to more and more and more and MORE go to intern with To Write Love on Her Arms... the Lord calls me to reach out to the generations surrounding me as well as my generation... I was talking to my other friend Hannah on friday about self-injury and addictions and we talked about how we have so many people in our lives that have been into either and most of the time it is the least of obvious. People tend to hid things well, and what I love about the organization is that it's getting conversations buzzing about things that used to be taboo to talk about... this spirit that lingers over our world needs to BREAK! and it's only a matter of God's time :).

I was going to leave short pump to get some chinese food but then saw a sign for the food court there... I knew there had to be some sort of Asian food there so I took that risk... knowing that the Asian food could not top that of the local places in the fan...I sat by myself after talking to the people of Panda Express... I openned and wrote in my sketch book as I sat eating some lovely orange chicken. So many people walking past where I ate... I figured it would be a good time to read some Romans, and this is where the title comes into play... if you were wondering hahaha...

So I openned Romans and read some of the subtitles... I've been stuck on Romans 6 so much lately I thought I would check out another chapter of Romans... "Present Suffering and Future Glory" stuck out to me, I knew God wanted me to read this... so I read it... tried to read it slowly... the first little part was really really good (it all was but here):

" I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. ¹⁹ The creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed. ²⁰ For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope ²¹ that] the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God."

so that was really good haha...

³⁸ For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, ³⁹ neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

God searches our heart, He knows ALL that's there... and what's awesome AWESOME AWESOME... NOTHING CAN SEPARATE US FROM THE LOVE OF GOD! as these days are coming and going I'm thankful that the Lord doesn't stop teaching me... we can never be bored with lessons from the Lord b/c there is always something new to learn.

much more on my mind at the moment but hard to put into words... thankful the Holy Spirit is here with me to intercede these moments of lack of knowing what to say and what to do... I think it's time I head out of my house and surround myself with my sisters... and contemplate more of what I was trying to get out perhaps... we shall see...

sorry for lack of pictures and extra words ;p